It's been a year, but I can still remember vividly everything that happened. The actions being done, the words being poured, the non-stop tears rolling down on the cheeks. I can still feel as if the knife of words is still stabbing into my heart, breaking my heart into pieces. The no-turning back sentences lead me to dead end. My world turned from a colourful world into a stormy with lightning strikes.
All the loves, all the effort done in maintaining the relationships gone in the lightning strikes. I felt so abandoned. I felt that I am such a useless person. I felt that I am doing something that is not worth doing! I felt myself so stupid for getting myself into that type of relationship when my ex didn't think of me in the future!
难道我就是时常被遗弃的那一个？
难道我就要那样被人玩弄吗？
难道我就没有当一位女人的价值吗？
难道。。难道。。
Did you know I was hurt badly by you?
Did you know you made my Valentine's Eve a nightmare? a disaster?
But I want to thank you for pushing me away,
so I will be able to find my true lover,
but can you get out from my mind?
can you bring away the bad memories that happened?!
我感到很内疚，很内疚，
我已经有了爱人华华了，
我为何还会有这个心情呢？
好讨厌自己。。。
对不起，华华。。现在你就是我的一切，请原谅我放不下之前的阴影。。。给我多一点时间，我相信有一天，我能把这件事情淡忘了。。但恳求你给我时间。。爱你。。
