幸福

幸福
每个人的定义都不同。

小康之家,
三餐温饱,
有地方睡,
可以是幸福。

驾名车,
住大房,
吃豪华餐,
又可以是另一种幸福。

单身,或
有爱人在一起,
也都可以是幸福的。

幸福是抽象的,
也可以是具体的,
但是我们就无法用一句话
来解释什么是幸福。

. 简单来说,
幸福决定了我们的人生,
我们的人生也决定了幸福。

. . 幸福共勉之

薇 ~

Over-doing

做多了

当

你为了一个人或一件事

牺牲自己的时间，金钱

拼命去完成。

但是

到头来

你才发现

其实当事人没有那么重视

你还比当事人紧张

所谓

皇上不急太监急

那时候

感觉自己好傻

好笨好蠢

起初

还天真以为可以

助人为快乐之本

但是

换来的只有白费

白白的白费心机

白白的白费时间

白白的白费金钱

白白的白费手力脚力

付出的

永远就收不回了

人就是这样

跌倒了

爬起来

继续走

如果走

别走同一条路

但是

为何我

一直重复

一直走回

一直犯贱？

反省。。

我是不是做多了？

我是不是该放手了？

可能。。。

我当初的决定是错的

是时候

好好去想,

未来的路怎么走下去。。

晚安

Luck

The four-leaf clover is an uncommon variation of the common, three-leaved clover. 
According to tradition, such leaves bring good luck to their finders, especially if found accidentally. According to legend, each leaf represents something: the first is for faith, the second is for hope, the third is for love, and the fourth is for luck.


Usually we'll wish others best of luck or good luck before anything happens. Is luck really that important?
Before we really contemplate on that question, let us understand more about luck...

Luck or chance is fortune (whether bad or good) which occurs beyond one's control, without regard to one's will, intention, or desired result. 
 Luck has three aspects which make it distinct from chance or probability.

• Luck can be good or bad.
• Luck can be accident or chance.
• Luck applies to an entity.

Some examples of luck:

• Break a leg
• You correctly guess an answer in a quiz which you did not know.
• Your car breaking down could be bad luck, if it was by chance and against the odds.

(Quoted from wikipedia.)

My bad luck of the day

1) I drove and bang at a road divider and there goes my car tyre. Instantly my car tyre cracked and you should have guessed what happen next... I should have taken a snapshot to share it here... 

2) I still need to continue teaching the subjects that I'm not interested in teaching next year. For your info, there's a difference of liking a subject but not liking to TEACH the subject. School Management kept saying we must think for the school needs, but do they really thought of us? It's been two years and they can't even tolerate a bit to let me even teach one of the subjects that I like to teach?

But, I must count my own blessings too~

1) My colleague and the school guard helped me to change my cracked tyre. It might look simple but when I see their sweat dripping down, I felt so touched and really thankful for them. :)

2) My last semester masters degree result was out a few weeks ago and I got first class(eventho there're no more first class in masters) for this semester. :D

3) I have a group of colleagues who are in the same situation as me so at least I'm still not alone teaching subjects that we do not favor.

Coming up....

Hoping to finding more four-leaf clover to enhance my good luck in everything I do even my career, my relationships, my studies and my everyday life. :)

Til then..signing off with finger crossed for all the good luck! Best of luck to all of you too ^^

I love my family

“When everything goes to hell, the people who stand by you without flinching -- they are your family. ” ― Jim Butcher

I love this quote so much~ Especially throughout these few weeks when I had relationship problems and they really support me to the max.

And now my parents just flew and left me for two weeks vacation. But before they left, mum cooked meals enough for me throughout the two weeks and freeze the foods at the freezer and I will only need to reheat to have my meal. I am really so touched...

I only need to reheat it in the microwave before eating. :)

Mum even labelled all the foods! :D 

 Thanks to my dearie sister and brother-in-law who accompanied me to fix my car last night and even waited for nearly two hours there. Really appreciate the both of you.


Throughout these period of time, I knew that family are always be there for me no matter what happens. Friends might be there to help you but they are not blood related to you and they will not bother to be as caring as family members used to be.

I really love another quote below:

"Be grateful for the home you have, knowing that at this moment, all you have is all you need.” Sarah Ban Breathnach

Do you care whether your good deed is appreciated or not?

We usually seek an answer to the moral riddle:
"If a good deed is done, and no one expresses gratitude for it, is it still a good deed?"
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The picture below showed what is my current mood now. I'm feeling so heart-broken that thousands of lightning are striking into my hearts. But, let me answer the question above first...

As for me, I don't care if my good deeds are recognized. I know what I did and I feel good about what I did. I do not need someone to pat my back or thank me.

BUT I don't like getting INSULTED by the one I'm helping.

Don't you think it's very rude to insult people who tried to help you? You can reject with a nice intonation and so what if your status is higher? That doesn't mean that you can look down on other??
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But I do give thanks that I learned something in this matter. I know what is the meaning by too much caring or help will only lead to frustration and it will burnt all the effort that you've helped those who are too egoistic and forever like a frog under the coconut shell ( a Malay saying).
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Anyway, thanks to that matter, my holidays plan are ruined. I'm glad that my parents are always be there for me whenever I was being taken advantages off. Thanks to my besties who are willingly listen to me and gave me lots of advices. Love will not last but family and friends will. Love you all.

Money money money $$$

Since long long time ago, everyone loves money, don't we? Even songs sang it out~! 

Abba's Money Money Money

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ETxmCCsMoD0 

The song is sung by the character of Donna as she explains how hard she has to work for keeping the taverna in order and desires for a more wealthy life.

And even now Jessie J sang about price tag http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qMxX-QOV9tI

Lyrically, the song is about Jessie J trying to make the public dance by forgetting about how much money they have.

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Today 13th of August 2012 is the day for all the government workers to rejoice~

It is simply because today is our pay day and last Thursday was our half a month bonus of our basic salary.


But it is time for Malaysian government workers to plan for their financial because the next pay day will be at the end of September. If you didn't plan properly, you might suffer when September starts.


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As for me, I am rejoice with all the Muslims all over the world for the coming Hari Raya Festival. But I am also grateful as I am one of the government workers who received the extra income this month.

But, how do I divide my small income?
I'm buying a car,
I'm paying for insurance(s), internet bills, credit cards debts, car petrol and other expenses.
I'm even planning to visit my brother end of next year and for those who know where my brother is, you know I do need big lump of money to go there.

Time for investment? Time for more savings? Maybe, this is the time for me to face the reality and do financial planning.

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Thanks to my personal financial advisor at home, I'm going to start to do investment and hopefully it will happen like a chinese saying 钱生钱 money grow money~

For those who are low-average income like me, (less than 5 figure monthly) and still less than 30 years old,  maybe it's time for you to plan your financial properly and WISELY for future use.

But in whatever circumstances, be grateful for what you have. Don't be too desperate until you need to cry over spilled milk.

Signing off............................$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

Marathon~

This is not a post about marathon but just about a movie marathon that I've experienced first time in my life last week.

Last weekend, my dearie came down to spend the weekend with me and since both of us had been wanting to watch movies, and at the same time there are a lot of blockbusters movies in the cinema, so we decided to have the movie marathon. :)

Firstly, we had Spiderman 4!

This show was about 2 and a half hours long. The first one hour of the story is about the history of the boy without even touching a bit about spiders and it made me a bit sleepy and I accidentally slept in my dear's arm. (It was 11pm show). 
But the second half of the movie was great. Love the actions and good ending too. Can't wait for the next spiderman but hopefully I won't fall asleep again next time. :P

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The second movie that we've watched the next day(Saturday) was a shorter movie. We decided not to spend too much time in the cinema so we chose this movie.

Yup, this is the one, Ice Age 4, Continental Drift. This was the continuation from the last ice age. Even Manny's daughter had grown up and even falling in love. Nice one there. :D
The summary of this story I copied from IMDb...~Manny, Diego, and Sid embark upon another adventure after their continent is set adrift. Using an iceberg as a ship, they encounter sea creatures and battle pirates as they explore a new world.~  

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Lastly, on Sunday, we had the current biggest hit movie in Times Square GSC Cinema. It was in Cinema 1, the big cinema. enjoyed~

Love the cool technology from the batman. Although this show was 2 hours and 45 min, and we even went to the toilet in the middle of the show, we enjoyed this movie very much. Apart from the high-tech car and superbike, this time it comes with a new plane. Very cool but only multi-billionaire like Bruce Wayne can own it. Can't wait for the next batman and I suppose Robin will appear in the coming Batman movie. :)

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That's all for the movie marathon. Coming up will be my exam fever again! All the best for those who will be sitting for exam! 

All the best! Jia you! Ganbatte! Semoga berjaya! :)

Life~

Life had been good to me.

For work, I manage to handle with my cute primary 1 and 2 kids that I thought I couldn't beginning of the year.

For study, I manage to finish my assignment on time or even earlier before deadline. Thanks to my elder and only sis for the great help in completing one of my major assignment. *hugs* I even passed all my exams when I thought I couldn't pass, and even miracle happens when one of my B- were being 'upgraded' to B after a few weeks the result was being announced.

For personal life, I am happy to stay together with my parents. They provide me with shelter, foods and transportation. I am glad to have my boyfriend who really love me and care for me whenever I needed him.

I should count my blessings but I dislike what I am feeling now. I'm not sure is it hormonal problem or just myself, I tend to feel emo and I might hurt anyone by words if I talk now. How I wish I can control myself from pressing myself too hard.

For work, I wish to teach better but at the same time the students' behaviour are driving me nuts in class.
For study, I wish to get better grades but I still have no chance to get to first class.
For personal life, I wish to earn more money but I do not have the time to have more tuition.

At night, when I am alone in my room, I tend to feel lonely and sad for what I cannot achieve and starting to give myself a lot of pressure. But at the same time, I kept telling myself to count my own blessing.

I just hope this bad feeling will leave me soon.

Maybe, I should tell myself this.....

Signing off ...

9.20pm (2/7/2012)

Education

What is education? Is education an important part in your life? Since young, we've been exposed to STUDY STUDY STUDY for around 20 years but do we really know the purpose of education?

I'm now nearly two years older from the age of a quarter of century and still STUDYing. 

In primary school, I study is to get good result, to please teachers and parents, and to get praises. 

In lower secondary, I study is to get a better position in class and to maintain in the best class. 

As for in Form 6, I study is to get a place in public university. 

Well, it continues in university, I study is to get a degree certificate. 

Afterthat, I continue with diploma in teaching just to get a cert, or a license to teach as a trained teacher. 

NOW, 

I'm pursuing MED, Master in Education. Initially, I took this course to get a better pay in my career. But now, thanks to the course, I've been thinking are we comfortable with our current education system or do we need to change?

In Malaysia, education was implemented quite nicely until the era of debating about the language in the two subjects. Until now, the new curriculum that had been implemented was not even planned properly. We, teachers were confused and even doubt the ability of people who planned the new curriculum.

Other than the ministry, parents and students' thinking nowadays are the main factors too. 

I'm currently in a college that my beloved is studying in and seeing all the students remind me of my degree time. The only different thing is that this is a private college that required higher tuition fees compare to public university. Normally, parents with better living lifestyle are able to send their kids to this place. I can see branded cars driving by the college by the students that did not even reach the age of 2 decades. All the latest phone models required half of my one month salary were being hold by them. 

People have been comparing and complaining. Now even education were being compared and complained too. But in my opinion, education is for all. Everyone should have the chance to get education no matter how poor or how rich they are. 

The ways of getting the education might me different but education will be even worthy if we strive harder to get it. 

I love my current university motto..

~ Education for all, University for all ~

沟通，有沟就会通

不管是在什么关系都好，

只要关系到人与人的联系，

沟通，

扮演着非常重要的角色。

如果什么都收在心里，

别人不是你肚子里的一条虫，

他们永远都不知道你心里在想什么。

有人告诉我，

隐瞒，

是一段感情的死穴。

沟通，

有沟，就会通了。

一段关系也是一样。

要长长久久的走下去，

唯一的方法就是要时常沟通。

通过沟通，

我们更了解对方，

我们更明白对方，

我们更谅解对方，

而不是，

要对方一直猜测我们的想法，

最后，

反而会让对方胡思乱想，

Deborah Tannen: “Life is a matter of dealing with other people, in little matters and cataclysmic ones, and that means a series of conversations.”

我们的生命就是与别人打交道，不管是大事或小事，我们都需要沟通。。

Love the love songs

Love songs wasn't one of my favourite thing to listen to when I was in my teenagers era thanks to my music teacher in primary school. 

Anyway, I start listening to songs and even start singing karaoke with friends during my uni years. 

Just last year, I was touched by love song sang by my beloved boyfriend and it was Richie Ren's 

爱的路上只有我和你 and that is how we start our journey of love together since then.

Below are the rest of the songs that my darling shared to me via fb. Really touched~~ ^^

Chris Brown - With You

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

Savage Garden - I knew I loved you

林子祥 - 分分鐘需要你

Boney M : Rivers of Babylon

Ne-Yo - Because Of You

Michael Jackson - Hold My Hand Duet ft. Akon

十指緊扣 - 張智霖

< Sometimes, you can't explain what you're feeling, and then you hear a song that sums up your entire situation >

Life's like thunder and lightning

Nowadays, the day always end with heavy downpour with the combination of the electromagnetic sparks and sonic shock wave that lead to as if the end is coming.

And my mood is almost the same as the weather these few days.

Pressure rushing in... ....

1) work - All BM teacher especially primary 1 in my school are facing great pressure. I'm taking two classes  so double pressure I'll be facing. Thanks to the government for the new policy given and more paper works to be done in a short period of time! 

2) academic - Exam is around the corner but yet I'm not ready for another two papers. How I wish I can concentrate and memorise but I couldn't do that because these two papers need logical thinking! Everytime thinking of 3.00 pointer to pass the paper, humongous pressure will be rushing into my brain!

3) friends and relationships - I'm not sure is it my problem or my communication skill is going down the drain. I'm not doing well with communicating with my friends and friends of mine kept making fun of ... I rather not to say to prevent from thinking of the bad memories again!

I am just like the person in the plastic bag that is lacking of oxygen to breathe! 

Now the only thing I can look forward to is the end of my another two exam papers...

Wish me luck, and yes, i really need a lot of luck for exams.  

Warm-hearted day ~ :D

Life might be a lot of ups and downs,

Life might be full of sorrows and sadness,

Life might be not as easy as we think it is,

But,

even if it's stormy and nasty outside,

even if we're surrounded by people with icy Arctic hearts,

we know that there are still people,

continue to radiate sunshine and warmth.

They are the great people,

that are sensitive and caring to us,

and sent us a big warmth hug to 

console our broken heart.

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             After two weeks of being a runner for sis and bro-in-law's house, after two weeks of panicking over the death of the poor little gold fish who was being treasured so much by my bro-in-law, finally the couple is back and I so love all the presents so much. I felt that my hard work(for me consider hard) is appreciated.  A sudden warm inside my heart. Thanks sis. ^^

             

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              "Kind words are like pure lotus, mean words are like poisonous snakes". This is one of the famous saying in tzu-chi. It is so meaningful that words really portrait a person's personality. 

                I was feeling a bit frustrated of people who judge people by the look. In English we always say "Never judge a book by its cover". Okay, I know I'm in a bigger size compare to other beautiful girls out there, but so what? Does it mean that if I am slim and skinny, I'll be able to have good personality, good life, good career? And furthermore, it is so mean to criticize your friend's gf in front of your friend. Those people who judge people by their appearance is going to end up as a big failure in life.

               But I was so glad that my dear bf supported me and defended me in front of his friend. He was angry but still, he calmly told his friend that ...

"Beauty is skin deep, if you only love someone for her appearance, you do not love her wholeheartedly, you'll only love her beauty, but not her heart. Beauty will surely fade one day but the true heart will always remain there. I love her for who she is, not by how she look"

               I was so touched and how I wish I can hug my bf instantly. I am indeed very touched to know that my bf is so matured in this relationship. This is the best present I have for our fourth month anniversary. 


               Today is 9 April 2012 marking the 4th month of us getting together in a relationship and we promise each other that our relationship will only get stronger. As our journey grows stronger, I'm sure that our love will become everlasting.

Happy fourth month anniversary darling~  永远爱你                 

Dreams. . .

A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes (English) from Cinderella

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep

Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true 

Although the life now is tough, 

even we think that we cannot cope with it, 

but do always remember our dreams,

to achieve our dreams,

we will need to get through these.

Once we get through these, 

rainbow will appear after rain,

and our dreams will definitely come true

one day...

Darling dear,

I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream,

I know you, the gleam in your eyes is so familiar a-gleam,

Yet I know it's true that visions are seldom all they seem,

But if I know you, I know what you do,

You'll love at once, the way you did once upon a dream. ^^

Once Upon a Dream - Sleeping Beauty

Movies movies movies :D

For the past four days in Penang, we watched 3 movies, to release our stress and to spend time together. ^^ First movie,  Mr and Mrs Gambler.

This is a comedy about a guy and a lady who really love gamble and how gamble linked two of them together and end up married and have kids. Quite a funny movie for you to laugh whole night. :)


Second movie, we've changed from comedy to HORROR! It's been a long long time since I watch horror movie in the cinema but this was a meaningful show but still it shocked me a few times. > < 

Second movie, The Woman in Black.

This story is not about Harry Potter even though you can see Daniel Radcliffe here! He has turned into a married lawyer with a 3 years old son. He is a lawyer who were being sent to a small village to deal with a will of a lady from an old mansion. The lady commit suicide because she lost her child and in the story she wanted all the children in the village to 'follow' her 'down'. Now I feel creepy...



Let us move on to the third movie. This is a sci-fi and action movie. Not bad ^^

John Carter

This story is about an adventurer named John Carter ended up in another planet and meet with aliens and the love of his life. :)

By the way, my bf and I went to 1st Avenue, Penang to watch this movie and that was the first time we watched in the beaniplex/ beanbag. :)

It only cost RM30 for a pair, means only RM15 per person! CHEAP! The usual couple seat I buy in KL were like RM 17-RM19 per person!

In the beaniplex, we can snuggle comfortably into the soft, cushy beanbag seats that come in pairs, for a cosy and relaxed viewing experience and I even slept in my bf's arm as it was too comfortable. :P

I didn't get to take photo but this is roughly how it looks like. :)




MORE NICE MOVIES COMING SOON IN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS! CAN'T WAIT ^^

Love is... ...

Love is not finding a hand that perfectly fits yours..
It's finding the one who is willing to hold your hand no matter how unfit it may be ♥

~ This is the best photo taken and I love it very very much! Thanks to my dear who candidly took this picture when we were walking by the seaside.

~ I had a blast spending time with my dear at Penang last week from 9th to 12th of March 2012. These are the photos from my fb album. :)
 https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150611449953951.391601.502193950&type=3

~Looking forward in taking more meaningful photos in the time to come. <3

February~~ love season 爱 的 季节

幸福是什么？

幸福就是牵着一双想牵的手，一起走过繁华喧嚣，一起守候寂寞孤独；

就是陪着一个想陪的人，高兴时一起笑，伤悲时一起哭；

就是拥有一颗想拥有的心，重复无聊的日子不乏味，做着相同的事情不枯燥……

心中有爱就有幸福，幸福就在当初的承诺中，就在当下的践行中，就在今后的回忆里。

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This is a belated Valentine's post but better late than never. :P

This year's 14th of February was a weekday,Tuesday. No celebration for us on that day the least we can do is to chat through the phone. :)

On the 17th of February, he came straight away to me after finish working. Though by the time he reached was already 18th of February, but I was still very touched by his effort to meet me and to celebrate our very first Valentine.

On the 18th of February, we finally changed our digi prepaid plan to digi postpaid plan. I'm his supplementary line so free calls between the both of us. :D We had our lovely lunch at Times Square Shabu-Shabu. Our first steamboat together. I really had a great time together with him steamboat-ing. :) At night, we had a romantic night at Wangsa Walk TGV cinema watching The Wedding Diary ( 结婚那件事).

Recalling back from the time we started to get together, this is our 3rd movie. First was 小英雄大故事 and second was Alvin and the chipmunks. This paragraph is just letting me to drop down the movies we watched b4 so I can remember. :P

The most touching part of this celebration is the gift from him. He bought a 3D puzzle and used nearly 3 hours to make it into a swan. It was so beautiful and I love it so so much!

 I super duperly love this swan so much! Treasure it! :)

These are the gift I got for my love. :)

Our first time travel around in monorail. Lovely time!

~ 华华爱人， 好想永远牵着你的手，幸福道路一起走；好想亲亲你的脸，我们相伴到永远。:)  ~

My nightmare

Although the incident already passed over a year, and I found my new love, but 13th of February is already a nightmare to me.

It's been a year, but I can still remember vividly everything that happened. The actions being done, the words being poured, the non-stop tears rolling down on the cheeks. I can still feel as if the knife of words is still stabbing into my heart, breaking my heart into pieces. The no-turning back sentences lead me to dead end. My world turned from a colourful world into a stormy with lightning strikes.

All the loves, all the effort done in maintaining the relationships gone in the lightning strikes. I felt so abandoned. I felt that I am such a useless person. I felt that I am doing something that is not worth doing! I felt myself so stupid for getting myself into that type of relationship when my ex didn't think of me in the future!

难道我就是时常被遗弃的那一个？
难道我就要那样被人玩弄吗？
难道我就没有当一位女人的价值吗？
难道。。难道。。

Did you know I was hurt badly by you?
Did you know you made my Valentine's Eve a nightmare? a disaster?

But I want to thank you for pushing me away,
so I will be able to find my true lover,
but can you get out from my mind?
can you bring away the bad memories that happened?!

我感到很内疚，很内疚，
我已经有了爱人华华了，
我为何还会有这个心情呢？

好讨厌自己。。。

对不起，华华。。现在你就是我的一切，请原谅我放不下之前的阴影。。。给我多一点时间，我相信有一天，我能把这件事情淡忘了。。但恳求你给我时间。。爱你。。