Flying^cow

Flying^cow
Love this pic at the 1st sight... This flying cow flies to look for it's dreams & hope... I hope one day, I'll be able to fly and find my freedom & dream too...

Friday, January 13, 2012

天真无邪

人一出生,
本来都是一张白纸,
没有被污染的清洁白纸。

我觉得自己非常幸运,
能参与帮忙这些白纸,
让他们在健康的环境下,
学新知识,
学怎样与别人相处,
也学怎样独立。

虽然教一年级真的不容易,
身负重任的一年级老师的我们,
虽然在给与这些小朋友指示时真的很疲惫,
加上他们又不听话,
我们老师又喊又叫又教的。。。
真的要失声了。。。

但是,
看到这些天真无邪的小孩,
他们那些天使般的脸孔,
还有几个看到我
就抱抱的,
就牵手的,
还有说
我爱你的,
最开心的是说,
Cikgu Tiong, 我当你的朋友好吗?
我本来没耐性的心,
顿然缓和了下来。。

我希望,
虽然我第一年教一年级,
但我真的希望能够,
好好的教导,
这些小朋友们。 ^^


~~~~~~ 我的新小朋友~ Goh Xin Ru (1H)




Monday, January 9, 2012

谢谢你,darlinG :*

光阴似箭 ~ ~
回想起12月9日那天,
我们那时的心跳,
跳得非常的快,
还记得,
我让他等了我30分钟,
想回都觉得不好意思。。


过后,
热情的他,
就这样破了我们之间的冰(break the ice),
让他第一次牵了我的手,
我第一次就这样和男生牵手,
我活了26岁,第一次被男生牵手,
被人家听都觉得可笑吧~~




~~   我们在Wangsa Walk 的 Fullhouse 喝茶,并在wangsa walk看我们第一次的戏,还坐在couple seat。。^^








                               到times square 和low yat 逛逛~我们拍拖了~~ :D


~~狡猾的华华知道我非常怕过The Gardens的玻璃桥,还硬拉我过去,我当时真的很怕很怕,紧紧的贴着他~ ~






       


                                            带华华去吉隆坡大名鼎鼎的双峰塔 ^^ ~

~ A for Abby, J for Jac, We're inseparable! :*








过后,我上了槟岛,与他共度了我一生中最快乐的圣诞节!


~ 好高兴可以去海边哦!感觉真的好浪漫!^^






                          ~ 过后我还第一次收到男生送花给我哦~~ 感激华华 :)








~在1st Avenue的我们还被误认为要结婚的情侣,一直推销结婚配套给我们,还送了我手中的气球花 ^^







~ ~ 圣诞节前夕,我们一起在Inti College 共度了富有神的存在的圣诞庆典。:)









~ ~ 在离开槟城之前,依依不舍的与华华送我的圣诞礼物拍照留念。








今天是一月九日,
刚好是我们俩的拍拖第一个月,
真的是我们很重要很重要的日子,
本来我想先和他亲口说的,
但是没有时间概念的我,
既然让他给抢先跟我说了,
但是我打从心里是非常的开心,
也非常的感动,
因为我知道他也知道这个日子对我们是多么的重要的。


Darling Hua Hua,
You're my first man of my life,
I know words and sentences couldn't express
how much I appreciate you,
how much I truly honour you,
But I do know that,
no matter what happens,
I will always be there for you,
like how you always do to be there for me.
I give you all my hearts,
as I know you'll give me yours too.
I pray to God that you'll be my first and my last man of my life,
and God will send angels to protect our relationship,
and remove all the obstacles in our way.


Happy 1st month anniversary my dear Hua Hua,
I hope we'll be able to celebrate more monthly anniversary in the months to come.


华华,我好希望,
我们能继续这样恩爱下去,
一直到永远,
希望我们也能每个月都能跟对方说,
" Happy Anniversary "


From: 永远爱你的 Darling Bibi Zai~~












让我们永远手牵手,心连心,永远互相照顾,互相谅解,互相扶持,一直到永远~ ~







Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Love can conquer everything



爱,在两位决定要长相思守的路上,是真的真的很重要的。
有爱,什么都行;
没有爱,就万万不能。 

有一句说的好,
将来会怎么样,未来是什么样,谁知道呢,
再怎么想也是想不透的,
也该坚定的决定下来了,
一旦决定,就坚定信心。

我本来因为一些挫折和障碍就想把这份爱让出去,
很感谢我的另一半的不离不弃,
而且在他百忙之中还浪费他宝贵的时间。
一直安慰我,安抚我,让我对我们之间更有信心。
我先前的想法真的很愚昧,
爱不是物品,不是说能施舍就能施舍的。。。

我很感谢上帝,
在我挣扎时,
通过圣经告诉了我们这一章。。。
 

“爱是坚忍的,仁慈的;有爱就不嫉妒,不自夸,不骄傲,不做卤莽的事,不私,不轻易动怒,不记住别人的过错,不喜欢不义,只喜爱真理。爱能包容一切,对一切有信心,对一切有盼望,能忍受一切。爱是永恒的。”--《新约.哥林多前书13:4-8》


 4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. (1 Corinthians 13:4-7)


我们一定会互相扶持,互相勉励,一起为我们的未来好好面对现有的重重障碍。
我相信,我们的爱,一定可以胜任一切。
God bless us... :)



Sunday, January 1, 2012

回首2011。。Recalling the year 2011... ...

2011 年是我一生中经历过最多最多事情的一年,
可能是第一年出来社会工作的关系,
所以经历的事情和平常求学时期时很不一样。

(未曝光就被判无期徒刑篇)
2011年初,
还记得是情人节前夕,
我第一次感觉到真正失恋的感觉,
之前中学的暧昧分分合合,
都比不起我这一段接近四年的感情来的痛。
虽然我们都知道我们的爱情都见不得光,
但是我们一直以来都很爱对方,
我们都很尽量争取时间,机会和对方见面。
我们在一起的时候,我感觉很开心,
感觉很幸福,多么希望就可以这样一辈子在一起。
但就这么一句,
I don't love you anymore.
再加上,
I can only treat you as a friend, a very good friend.
就这样,
接近四年的感情就画上句号。
也就这样,我又被别人抛弃了。。。

(事业被打击篇)
在学校上班,和我的组长,
因为一些因素,大家都闹得很不愉快。
在这事情,
我察觉到社会的丑陋,人与人之间的奸诈。
这是我平生第一次来,被人重重的出卖的一次,
当时我感觉人比鬼来的更恐怖!
我当时真的很想很想,就丢下辞职信。。。。


(走回轨道篇 Part 1)
虽然面对爱情的失败,又面对事业上的瓶颈,
但是我很感谢上帝,因为我身边有很多天使,
我的同事们,可能年纪相近的关系,大家都很谈得来。
在我的爱情和事业遇到阻碍时,他们都不离不弃,
一直支持我,并当我的聆听者,
让我度过了这些非常难过的时刻,非常谢谢你们。

2011尾端。。。
我自知自己天生都不是属于漂亮的女生,
一直以来的蜜蜂都是在我朋友身边绕,
我也知,我的较大型身形也不是普通男生能接受的,
所以当我姐姐(与我身形差不多)找到另一半时,
我感到无比的羡慕。。。
就在自己只能羡慕别人时,我自己开了另一个面子书户口,
起初,我对自己非常没有信心,所以随便放了另一个女子的照片,
但是到最后,有些男生主动来找我时,我觉得我不应该再欺骗他们,
所以放了真的照片,那时我知道一定有些男生会停止联络我的,
但是,也有些男生还继续联络我,那些男生让我觉得很意外。
其中有几位,给我的感觉还蛮不错的,我们便交换了电话,
但是最让我感动的还是他,那位为了我独自下来KL,
也是第一位男生,让我去到槟城,和他度过了最开心的圣诞节。
但是我和他做了一件不知算对还是不对的问题,
而且答案会在这几个星期分晓。。。
但是不管以后和他有没有得发展下去,
我都要衷心的感谢他,
让我感觉到被重视的感觉,
让我有幸福的感觉,
因为他真的让我越来越喜欢他了。。^^ 


2012年1月1日的到来,
让我们一起正面的面对,
我的‘未来’,在几个星期内就会知道,
但是不管怎样,
我相信,
只要积极的面对,就一定可以克服,
一起享受美好人生,,^^












Thursday, December 22, 2011

忍.... 忍.... 忍....


今天。。
本来可以一起开开心心的,
一家人,
包括姐姐和姐夫一起,
吃顿饭,
一起搓汤圆,
一起庆祝冬至。。

为了这个晚上,
我特地去载姐姐来,
我还特地去了pavilion,
塞了几个钟头的车,
打包了今晚的晚餐,
但是。。。

却换来很多抱怨,
好,我忍。。。
吃了那顿饭,
一起搓汤圆时,
又抱怨了。。
好,我再忍。。

我到底要忍多久。。
说我不体谅,
说我不了解,
那么你们了解吗?
你们体谅吗?

迟早我真的会变成忍者了。。
但是每个人的容忍都有个限制的。。

希望我这次出远门后,
能让我从新出发,
回来时,
能恢复正常。。

I hope....

Saturday, December 17, 2011

AM I MAKING THE RIGHT CHOICE TO BE IN 'IT'?


I'm still wondering...
still wondering....
why on earth did I put myself in this situation?

Since young, I'm totally bad luck in it...
I couldn't cope well with it,
couldn't stay good in it...

Furthermore,
I'm now in the process of entering ageing phase,
Will I be able to continue cracking my brain for this?

Masters in Education,
sounds so 'easy' in the eye of people,
I thought it was easy too,
just study and assignments and exams...
But....

Oh no! My brain is not listening to me!
I've been cracking and searching for the right nerves to store in
all the information into my head,
to prepare for the examination TOMORROW!

Since I've taken the first step,
I think I just need to continue with it,
after all the complains here,
it's time to bury myself into my revision notes again,
all the best to everyone who are sitting for their examination too.

God, please please please send angels of wisdom to me tomorrow,
I do really really need it....


Tuesday, December 13, 2011

真的有爱情吗?

在这个爱情路上,虽然我的经验不是很多,如果不算那些短暂的暧昧,我真正的就只有一段四年的爱情.他让我过了四年的欢喜和忧愁.还记得今年的二月十三日,就是在情人节的前一天,他提分手时,真的重重的让我对爱情,对感情失去了信心。

过后的几个月,我一直希望有机会和他复合。每当他给我一点期望时,我以为我们真的有机会回复。但是希望慢慢变成绝望了。。

突然变成单身的我,一直把自己锁在自己的世界,天天对着电脑上网,过后还开了另一个fb户口,能够不用我真的身份,尤其是我在俗人眼里称为圣神的职业,来跟陌生人讲我的真的心情。可能不认识的关系,所以我不需要再隐瞒,也不需要像我平常生活一样演戏。当时,通过交友的page,认识了几位男生,有大过我,也有小过我,但是我真的没有想过能在网上交真的朋友。

但是,我真的认识了一位我觉得很不可能发生在我发生的一件事情。他为了见我,自己一个人独自坐巴士,从老远的槟城来到吉隆坡这里.我们在两天两夜过了非常开心的日子.以前因为都走地下情的关系,我从来都没有真的拍过拖.不曾被人拖手走街,也不曾在外面抱抱,更不用说在外亲亲.但是他真的带给我很多的第一次,我们一起的第一次.虽然现在我们因为还有很多因素,所以还不算在一起,但是我们在对方的心目中已经有很重要的位子..不管怎样,我真的很开心能认识到他,我的华华.我们一起在the gardens的圣诞树的合照 :).


但是,我的世界真的有爱情的存在吗?我还在怀疑着。。


Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Trying to be more understanding...

People keep saying try to be more understanding, but when i am trying to be more understanding and care for their feelings, how about me? Did they think of my feeling???

When I'm down, I really don't know who can I talk to. When I'm not feeling good, I also don't know who can I talk to too. They might see my happy face everyday, but they will never know how do I feel deep in my heart.

But I really thank God for my colleagues in school for always being so supportive for me in my work, if not I might really collapsed. But colleagues are not my family members, not my lovers, not someone who stay near to me, I couldn't just disturb them night and day.

Everyday when I reach home, I really didn't know how to let my parents know what I faced in school. How I was being ordered to do things here and there, being scolded by kids' parents cos I was only performing my duties and so forth. My parents are very protective so I really scared they might look for my boss so I prefer to stay quiet. But this is why they didn't know the reason I reach home late everyday. My assistant boss already warned me to make sure I finish my work as I didn't have the time to mark all my books before the previous school holiday starts. Other than that, when my parents still asked me to do things, especially my mum(a sch principal also) asked me to help to do her school work, I really feel like breaking down! It is because I need to do school work at school and now when I'm back at home I still need to do some more!! But I want to be a good kid to them, so I did what they asked reluctantly.

To be honest,
if I say I put my friends at my first place in my heart, I am lying, but they're at my 3rd place.
if I say I put my family at my first place in my heart, I am lying, but they're at my 2nd place.
if I say I put 'you' at my first place in my heart, yes, I'm telling the truth.

4 years, or should I say around/nearly 4 years.... We've been through ups and downs, both of us also sacrificed for us. If you ask me to really forget you, I can't. If you ask me not to think about you, I can't. If you ask me not to contact you, I'm trying very very hard! Give me sometime to let us go, can you?

Anyway, this is just simply a complain blog. My tears that dropped onto my cheeks has already dry, so means it's time to move on. Good night world.


Wednesday, June 1, 2011

12 days of ups and downs

Don't get me wrong, the ups and downs aren't referring to mood swing or anything mentally. :P It's just simply getting up 3 storey-high building and down for 12 days course. Let me start.

a) FIRST PHASE (29-31/3/2011) - THIS IS A SMALL WORLD AFTER ALL

At the end of March 2011, my colleague ( JJ ) and I received a letter asking us to attend 12 days
English Proficiency Course for non-option English Teacher. (MBMMBI)

There were four phases involved, 3 days a week (8am-4pm) and it was conducted fortnightly, so in the end took us around 2 months.

JJ and I were reluctant to go but letter from the ministry was like letter from the King, there was nothing we could do but follow.

On the 29th of March morning, JJ and I reached IPGM Kampus Ilmu Khas, Cheras, Kuala Lumpur. We went with a heavy heart(reluctant), and when we went to Drama Room(English Block), we were shocked to find out a lot of other school's participants didn't turn up.

JJ was lucky as her ex-college mate was there too. I was a bit confused with JJ's college mate as she really looked like my UKM friend. After joining into the conversation, I was surprised to know she is actually my UKM friend's twin sister! Nice meeting you Iris! Luckily I didn't call you Vicky in the first place. :)

In the end, due to the lack of participants turning up, we were combined into another cohort (group), so the original 3 cohorts end up becoming 2 cohorts only and we were moved to another block.

So, the course began. We were divided into groups, and five of us from the collapsed cohort stayed together as a group.
(From right: Hui Sze, Tow, Iris, JJ and me! :D)

We started with listening and speaking course. We didn't expect this course would end up as fun as this and at that moment, we were glad to be there.

I still remember another fun thing, as meals were provided(breakfast + lunch), so usually in the morning session, we would always thought of what would be served later. Iris, do you still remember your favourite kueh tiaw?

B) 2nd and 3rd Phase - starting to get BORED
As the title says it all, as 2nd and 3rd phase of the course is more to reading and writing, we started to feel bored. So throughout that 2 phases, mostly we've been looking forward for meals. :P But at the end of 3rd Phase, we went through an exam. An exam without needing us to do any revision. :P

C) 4th and Last Phase - ending with FUN
4th phase is so-called the main phase for us to show what have we learnt during this course. We conducted a mini exhibition. We were given different titles and my group was lucky enough to get Foods all around the world. So we have decided to prepare real foods, as in really real foods that can be consumed by the visitors. The pictures below said it all :)
Bon Appetit! It's a french word means enjoy your meal. :)

Iris, JJ, Hui Sze and me!

Getting busy with our mini stall serving tang yuan(rice flour ball)

delicious dessert in the making. :)

Group picture before we say Goodbye.

I will definitely miss my first course since I started my profession last year and also I'll miss the time hanging out especially with my group members. We really had fun discussing, chit-chatting, eating and making fun of each other. I can still meet JJ in school( she only sit in front of me in the office :P) but for Iris and Hui Sze, I will definitely miss them.

Iris, I will always remember you when I see kueh tiau in the future :P.
Hui Sze, wish you smooth delivery of your baby boy in August ya!
Friends are the most important ingredient in this recipe of life and all of you are the precious ingredient to me." :)

Till we meet again... ...:)

Monday, May 9, 2011

Happy Papa and Mama's Day
















My beloved mama with her mother's day flowers (8/5/11) and my cute papa with his birthday cake (3/5/11)

Despite what happened for the past few weeks, I am glad that this two special occasions finally bring our family together again.

Parents played important roles in our life. When we were young, they can do everything for us. When we grow up and they are old, can we do anything that is right for them? They never complained when we made a big fuss out of anything during our younger days but when they grow older, we kept complaining and not thinking what they did for us last time.

Do recall back the memorable moments with our parents and love our parents.

Papa and mama I love you. :-*